I am tired of being SICK

I hardly get sick and this is very frustrating. I have been sick off and on all year so far! I want to find time to do my homework, sleep, work and spend time with my husband, family and friends. My New Years resolution was to make more time for the people I love. I have been doing that pretty half ass, just as all my other goals. I just took a test and got a 53%! I have had straight A's with minimal effort for a few years now - this class, I will be happy with a C. Anyways, this sick crap is not helping me at all. I have been sleeping since Saturday night. My bills need paid, a group project is due, and it is Valentines week! Working on writting my feelings instead of hiding behind eating and smoking is not off to a great start! Although, since I am sick, I have not eaten in two days except for some chicken broth, and had only a handful of cigaretts. I have to spend Valentines day by myself, which really sucks. I have to work until 6 and Jason has class at 7. He will be home by 9:30/10, but who wants to eat a romantic dinner, or anything else then? I know it is just a day. He said we will celebrate on Friday, but it just bothers me. Jason really does not get me and these 'made up holidays' and that may be why it bothers me so much. Plus I have not spent a nice, uniteruppted night with him since before Christmas - no, one date night. Anyways, between those two things and worring about how my 5 year Anniversary will be spent, has made me thirst for a nice, romantic something! I know Jason's heart is always in the right place, but man, does he need help in the romance area! He does, every now and then, come up with something. I need to just chill and love whatever happens. I love him and he loves me, now if we could just add a singing telegram or something! Really though, I think I just need some sign to know I am not lost in his world of work, school and World of Warcraft, but if I tell him, it is not him doing it.